This weekend, I have been at ECU by myself. My roommate left Thursday afternoon and will be back Sunday afternoon. This is the first time that I have ever been COMPLETELY alone in my whole life, and I have come to this conclusion, I DON'T LIKE IT!!!! I don't like it AT ALL. Sure, everyone loves to have some peace and quiet every once in a while, but a weekend is too long for me.
I am so thankful for my siblings. I may complain about them or argue with them, but at the end of the day I love them with all my heart. I wouldn't trade any of them for anything!!!! Maybe if I had been an only child I would think differently; however, I am not an only child. I don't think I fully realized how TRUELY grateful I am for the siblings that I have, until Thursday night when I was laying in bed starring into the darkness.
Owen - I know you probably don't read my blog, but I want you to know how much I love you. You are my rock and my shield. I know you will defend me in any situation. I love the way you are embarassed by your buffness and how you shy away when any girl tries to come and talk to you. I can't believe that you are taking driver's ed. If I don't think I should be old enough to go to college, then I definitly don't think you are old enough to be driving a car!!! We may fight and get angry with each other every once in a while, but I want you to know that I will ALWAYS love you and I will ALWAYS be there for you!!!
Alexa - I always know I can go to you when I need a good laugh, sometimes I laugh at the joke itself and sometimes I laugh at you because you think you are so funny! :-) I am so thankful that you are my sister. Even though we are completely opposite in our fashion sense, we are similiar in so many other ways. I am so proud of you for stepping out and making friends. I know how hard it is to make new friends. I am so sorry that I missed your first show, I know you did AMAZING!!!! Thank you for being you, and not changing for anyone!!! We will be sisters forever, no matter where we live, no matter how famous you get, no matter what we do in life. I will ALWAYS love you and do anything for you!!!!
Ian - You will always and forever will be my baby. I know that sounds funny, because I am not your mom, but from the moment you were born, I knew we had a bond that no one could break. We are so similar in SO many ways, and I hadn't noticed it until I left for college. You are a very gentle and kind hearted boy. When others are upset or hurting, you are upset and hurting for them also. You are growing up to be an AMAZING young man. I will ALWAYS be there to snuggle with you whenever you want, no matter how big you get. No matter what happens in the future, I will ALWAYS be there and come to you whenever you need me!!!
Baby I don't know - I don't know you yet, but I already love you. You have had a special place in my heart for a long time. I long for the day when I can hold you. I even long for the day when I just know your name. Wherever you are, please know that I love you, I pray for you, and I can't wait until you come home to us.
I wouldn't trade my siblings for anything. They have made me the person I am today and I will be forever grateful!!!
